If you recognize these images you are my favorite. The story of van Meegeren is one of my favorite art crime stories and the book The Forger' Spell is such a great read. The one on the left is Han van Meegeren and the right is our hero Vermeer.
I was contacted by www.artsy.net to help them out and link an article they have done on the amazing Johannes Vermeer, so please check it out and click on the link. The more we all know about art the better perspective we get on what is happening around us. The irony being that when I spell (impostor, imposter) it tells me it is spelled wrong. But the always 100% true all the time, never wrong website wikipedia tells me I can spell it either way, so who is truly the imposter/impostor? Wikipedia Entry 1/21/2016 Impostor syndrome (also spelled imposter syndrome, also known as impostor phenomenon or fraud syndrome) Despite external evidence of their competence, those exhibiting the syndrome remain convinced that they are frauds and do not deserve the success they have achieved. Proof of success is dismissed as luck, timing, or as a result of deceiving others into thinking they are more intelligent and competent than they believe themselves to be. I struggle HARD with this. (That's what she said.) I'm extra bad at taking compliments, I feel most of the time that I am getting away with showing someone a incomplete work of art. Or I feel that because my work is not the same quality of the work I obsess over in art books I am unqualified to present my work as art. Instagram has helped me a lot, showing me that it is okay to let people into your process and show your work unfinished. I may not have received critical success but I have received my fair share of compliments and encouragement (special thank you to Nama) all along the way, but I still struggle with the idea that it is deserved. I think this might be something that I "deal" with for my whole life, which is probably a good thing in a way to keep myself grounded. BUT..... I think you should enjoy and learn to accept the compliments and cherish the good moments. Which is maybe harder than dealing with imposter syndrome. In the current art world, and in almost every aspect of our current society there is so much pressure on producing, the market is focused on quantity and quality together now, that in order to find success you need to work yourself into such a frenzy that if feels as if there is never any time to slow down and really enjoy the successes you have, no matter how small they may be. When I finish a painting I have to start another painting right away in order to absolve me of the guilt of not "working." This gets me into a vicious cycle of producing without stopping to truly think through a thought or concept before putting the brush to the canvas. Jasper Johns was a champion of that, he would stop and work out his next piece in his mind before producing it allowing the work to be fully matured before it entered reality. I don't think this is the only way, but another way to think about creating anything.I think there might be a happy medium in there somewhere.
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